"I was saved when I was young. All seemed to go well until my twenties, when I was plagued with blasphemous thoughts, which plagued me day and night for some years. Several ministers advised me to ‘trust the Lord’ or ‘pray about it – but the more I did so, the worse it became! I seriously contemplated suicide. It was at this juncture that I asked Doctor Martyn Lloyd-Jones, for help."

Read transcript: https://illbehonest.com/plagued-with-blasphemous-suicidal-thoughts-lloyd-jones-counsel

→ The book: https://banneroftruth.org/us/store/history-biography/d-martyn-lloyd-jones-3/